kori: February 2005 archives
A Day in the Supersectionals
[ rakaur on Sun Feb 27 at 07:35 PM // category: kori, life, relationships ]
So, I was supposed to go see Kori and the drill team perform at supersectionals today. She told me they performed at 1:50, and that it would probably run early.
I woke up at 12:15. Sucks. I ran upstairs, shoved two cheeseburgers down my face, took a ten minute shower, and got in the car and left. We wound up getting there about 1:30. We got in, sat down, and waited. They weren’t within the first few groups, so I figured I missed them, being rather pissed off.
Apparently, they were running over an hour behind. So, we waited around for quite a bit. Some of the performances were pretty cool. Eventually, they came out, and they did pretty damn good. They qualified for state competition, so it’s all good.
I didn’t actually get to talk to Kori while I was there, which was a bummer. I went there to see her perform, and didn’t get to talk to her.
In other news, I’m trying to figure out how in the blue hell I could come up with enough money for prom. Not that I have anyone to go with anyway. I’m not going to pay to go stag. Everyone I know already has dates. The logical thing to do would be to ask the girl I actually like, but I don’t have the testicles for that.
There’s another ton of crap I’d like to talk about today but it’s all depressing and there’s really very little point and I feel like crap so I’m just going to stop now. That was one sentence.
Now.
-- rakaur // 2005.02.27 @ 07:35 PM
The Woman is Responsible for Bitching
[ rakaur on Sun Feb 27 at 12:27 PM // category: kori, life, relationships ]
So, I went to a dance tonight. The dance is called TWIRP, which is an acronym meaning “the woman is responsible for paying.” That should explain the title.
I never planned on going. Someone in our little circle of friends didn’t have a date, and you can’t go stag, so she asked me. I said no. Then someone else in our little group that doesn’t like the former person told me not to go. So, just to spite her, I said yes. I don’t have any particular fondness for either of them, but I figured “hey, last year, why not?”
Over all it was decent. The music sucked ass though. My date ditched me almost instantly and danced with a ton of other people, which I don’t care about because I don’t like her. Then, when no one would dance with her she comes running to me. No, thanks. She got pissy. Apparently everyone wanted me to say no, so she’d get her payback for the ditching. I couldn’t have cared less, honestly.
It was nothing personal; I wouldn’t have danced with anyone else either. If it was someone I cared about and that cared about me, maybe, but otherwise, I just don’t dance. I mean, you’re lucky to get me in a tie and to the dance in the first place. My social ineptitude won’t allow much else.
I saw Kori a few times and talked to her for a while, which is always nice. Kori’s the first close friend I’ve had in quite some time, and it’s a shame I don’t get to see her more often. We hardly ever do anything together outside of school. I really care about her, and she’s probably the best friend I have, so it’s a bummer.
Oh man, I need a girlfriend.
-- rakaur // 2005.02.27 @ 12:27 PM
Stranger on the Bus
[ rakaur on Wed Feb 23 at 07:29 AM // category: eawr, kori, life, relationships, school ]
It seems every time we’re coming home from a Scholar Bowl match, a certain someone sits next to me and tells me her life story. A few bus rides ago she told me she’s interested in me.
This time she said she is, but shouldn’t be, because I like Kayla and it’s “pointless.” Yeah, because you know, my relationship with Kayla is absolutely soaring.
Earlier that day, Kori was very upset, and I had considered calling her to or from the match, so I wrote her number on the back of my hand. Of course, she saw, and asked what it was. Then later in the Kayla conversation she was yelling at me about liking Kori too. It took a solid ten minutes to explain that Kori and I often find each other in similar situations and so became good friends in a short amount of time. Plus, there’s the whole Kori’s-already-in-a-long-term-relationship part of the deal, which she seems to completely ignore.
Nothing against her, she’s nice and all. I don’t want to really take it anywhere because she’s uberreligious and I’m ubernot. She’s the type that gets offended when you say “Jesus” instead of “geeze.” That’d get unbearable after about ten seconds with her.
Come to think of it, I have absolutely no idea why she can stand me at all. I always agitate the religion thing, and she gets mad. I’m never nice to anyone; I’m a giant cock to most people. So, I don’t get the dilly yo. I mentioned some of this to Kori, and she already knew! That’s swell! I love it when people know things about my personal life before I do.
It always gives you that confirmation of control to get you through the day.
-- rakaur // 2005.02.23 @ 07:29 AM
I Feel Like Pain
[ rakaur on Sun Feb 20 at 04:33 PM // category: kori, life, relationships, running ]
Oh boy do I feel the burn.
Friday after school we (Harrison, Tim, Dan, Adam, and me) played football at Belk Park. Harrison and Tim aren’t so much of a problem, but Dan and Adam are both twice my size. Adam sucks though, so you’ll have that. I was still okay until the next morning.
I could barely get out of bed. My everything hurts. Thighs, calves, back, arms, neck, everything. It’s just now starting to go away. Well, maybe it would have gone away.
But, I just went running with Kori. It’s hella nice out (65F), and she asked, and who can turn Kori down anyway? Had a nice jog, and my ankles hurt now. I need to talk to the long distance coach and figure out what kind of shoes I need; I think that’s my main problem at the moment.
But it was worth it to hang out with Kori. She got to see my cats and dogs and mom and even my dad showed up to drop something off.
Good day.
-- rakaur // 2005.02.20 @ 04:33 PM
Coffee Makes the World Go 'Round
[ rakaur on Thu Feb 17 at 06:56 AM // category: eawr, kori, life, relationships, school ]
My shirts are going over well. I made two very simple shirt designs in print shop. One’s a sketch of John Lennon with his signature at the bottom, and one’s a rip off of a ThinkGeek shirt (hey, I’m not paying $15 when I can pay $5). A bunch of people want the latter, and a bunch of my father’s friends are ordering the former. I just might make a bit of money for once.
Talked to Kori more last night. We finally touched on the whole “why were we instantly close” thing. Not that it’s a bad thing; I haven’t been this close to anyone since Beth, and that was nearly seven years ago.
I’m debating whether or not I should give her the location of this. I mean, we’re close, and she’s awesome, but I have some pretty pathetic things in this. Post upon post of me whining about not being able to talk to stupid girls. I don’t know, I was pretty emo when I decided to start writing in this thing. She already knows I’m a nutcase, so, I don’t think it really matters.
I only wish we got to talk more. I usually see her for maybe 20 contact minutes at school, and we’re rarely online at the same time. I don’t know why I can talk to her so easily, but hey, I’m not complaining. We just need to do stuff together.
In other news, (oh man this is getting long and tedious) I got used by a girl yesterday! The volleyball team is selling some crap, and one of them asked me if I wanted any. Of course, I said no. Then Kayla asked. Of course, I said yes.
Oh I’m such a sucker.
-- rakaur // 2005.02.17 @ 06:56 AM
If She's Out There Somewhere
[ rakaur on Mon Feb 07 at 07:11 AM // category: kori, life, relationships ]
So yeah, not much is up; I keep forgetting I should write in this thing.
Been talking to Kori a lot. With most people it takes me forever to feel open with, but with her it was almost immediate. I worked with her a few times in Physics and felt extremely comfortable talking to her. Needless to say, that’s pretty weird for me. I usually can’t stand people, and I’m usually completely unable to talk to girls unless I hate them. Not that I don’t like her, but I guess I know that she’s got a boyfriend and is already very happy, so I shouldn’t bother. She’s an awesome person to talk to, and I hope we wind up being good friends.
In other news… well, er… hmm. I’m still sick. It doesn’t appear to be going away. The days are okay, but the nights are horrible, and the mornings are worse. I’m starting to wonder if it’ll ever go the fuck away.
This song is awesome.
If it’s to be, that there’s just no one for me
I will try not to cry much, so no one will see
But if it’s to be, that there is anyone for me
Our hearts will shine, so everyone will see
I’ve got some time, so maybe if you’re free
I could use a friend, just to talk to meIf she’s out there somewhere
I would give everything to know
Just to hold and to finally have her
Take me to sunrise from indigoLived most of my life without anyone near
Never cared what happened, you know I never saw clear
But I’m getting older now and I’m thinking about my end
And to leave without love, and without a friend
Well it’s getting late, so maybe if I tried I could find one
Before I dieAnd if she’s out there somewhere
I would give everything to know
Just to hold and to finally have her
Take me to sunrise from indigoIt’s not over yet
I’m alive but alone and denied
But I’m still standingIf it’s to be that there’s just no one for me
I will try not to cry much, so no one will see
But I’ve got some time, so maybe if you’re free
I could use a friend, just to talk to meIf she’s out there somewhere
I would give everything to know
Just to hold and to finally have her
Take me to sunrise from indigoAnd if you’re out there somewhere
I would give everything to know
Take me to sunrise from indigo
-- rakaur // 2005.02.07 @ 07:11 AM
