relationships: March 2005 archives


The Title is the Hardest

[ rakaur on Fri Mar 25 at 11:14 PM // category: kori, life, relationships, running ]

I hate Harrison.

We had to run eight 200 meter repeats today at practice. I ran five, skipped six, and ran seven and eight. I was pretty spent. Harrison, however, went on to run two or three more. With perfect form. He just looks like he was built for running, so it’s something he’s good at. I have yet to find what I’m good at. It’s not running, that’s for sure.

After practice, Harrison and Tabby (I actually don’t think I’ve mentioned her before) showed up and played some cards. It was rather uneventful though, much like my writing tonight.

Just got done visiting with Kori. I haven’t seen her forever, so I was quite delighted when she showed up. She seemed kind of upset on IM, but seemed okay when she got here. I don’t know… something was definitely bothering her, but whatever it was she didn’t mention in our conversation. It was nice just sitting around and talking for a while. Pretty much the best part of my day.

So I guess I’m going to go up to the SIUE cross-country course tomorrow and run that for a good thirty or forty minutes. It’s going to suck. A lot.

Ah yes, Tabby (or is it Tabi?). Never mentioned her before, I think. I just recently started talking to her, though we’ve done stuff together before, with friends and such. She seems to be a really sweet girl, and is nice to talk to. Kind of reminds me of Kori, but not as relaxed and easy-going. I never get to hang out with Kori though, so maybe I’ll get to see this one more often. I hate never getting to see pretty much the closest friend I have. It’s strange: I’ve known pretty much all of my friends longer than I’ve known Kori, but I still feel like she’s the best friend I have. Just hanging out and talking to her tonight was awesome. Never getting to see her is killer.

As a side note, this song is insanely long.

Have a nice day. Oh, and, sweet dreams Kori.

-- rakaur // 2005.03.25 @ 11:14 PM

Requested Update

[ rakaur on Fri Mar 25 at 12:07 PM // category: kori, life, relationships ]

Hi Kori!

There we go.

-- rakaur // 2005.03.25 @ 12:07 PM

IC or Bust

[ rakaur on Sat Mar 19 at 09:16 AM // category: life, relationships, school ]

I have a Website. Right.

I’ve been rather depressed, so I haven’t bothered posting on this (well, haven’t bothered as in completely forget it existed).

Kayla has expressed her lack of interest in me. That’s pretty much what I expected, but you know, it still sucks balls. So many little things here or there that made me think otherwise. Plus, a few of my friends telling me things that made me think otherwise. Actually, all of my friends telling me things that made me think otherwise. Hopes came crashing down.

My plans for the next decade of my life have pretty much come crashing down as well. I wasn’t accepted for admission by Illinois College, which is pretty much the only school I have any interest in attending. So, there goes that. It would now seem, that my only option remaining (since I refuse to attend a huge state school like Southern Illinois University or the University of Illinois, et al) is to attend a shitty ass community college for a while.

Why is this bad? Well, because I’ll have to spend a year or two there. Then, three years at IC (assuming they accept me after that), and two years at the partner university, all for two BSs. Most people get a doctorate in that time, but no. So, while all of my friends are away at real college getting real educations, I’ll be stuck in a lame community college with a bunch of idiots that are too stupid to get into a real school.

Look ma, I’m a fucking moron.

-- rakaur // 2005.03.19 @ 09:16 AM

That's All Folks

[ rakaur on Tue Mar 08 at 05:04 PM // category: life, relationships ]

She said no.

-- rakaur // 2005.03.08 @ 05:04 PM

Up Shit Creek

[ rakaur on Mon Mar 07 at 11:16 PM // category: eawr, kori, life, relationships, school ]

Well, everyone left me so I guess I’ll drown my sorrows in my blog.

It’s been quite some time since my last blog update. I can’t really think of a damn thing that’s happened.

Oh, hey, I’m failing Algebra II because I sit right behind Kayla! I was making an A before we got new seats. I guess that should tell me, you know, for the sake of my education (not to mention my sanity) I should request to be moved to the front. But, no, I’ll never bring myself to do that, because that would take me away from Kayla! THE WHISTLES GO WOO!

Let’s see what else we have here. Ah yes, I went hiking! With Kori! You’d think that’d be a good thing, but no. The hike was good and all, but, here’s the thing: Matt and Tim came along too. Matt and Tim are both massively depraved people. As soon as we got into the car, they both had to start yammering about how hot Kori is. Yes, she’s attractive, now shut the fuck up. I wanted to slam on the breaks and kill them, but no, I just sat there grinding my teeth. I didn’t think it would bother me so much, but you know what, Kori’s my friend, and I care deeply about her, and having to sit and listen to people objectify her is going to piss me off rather quickly. It takes a lot to piss me off (less these days than it used to, but that’s a result from being a cold, lonely bastard), but that’ll do it just about instantaneously.

Yelling at Matt about it later did soothe me some.

<@rakaur> yes, she's attractive, now shut the fuck up, she's my friend
<+harrimat> yeah, tim was rather ogle-y
<@rakaur> it doesn't matter
<@rakaur> the "LOL KORI'S HOT LOL" for 20 minutes in the car was pissing me off
<@rakaur> i didn't think it'd bother me
<+harrimat> did i say that?
<+harrimat> MY MAZZERAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATI
<@rakaur> i don't know if you did or not
<@rakaur> i was trying to ignore you guys
<@rakaur> and, maserati
<+harrimat> i kept mentioning tim and his gay
<+harrimat> jabbing me with a stick
<+harrimat> going *NEADERTHAL NOISE*
<@rakaur> as hard as this may be to comprehend
<@rakaur> she's my friend, i care about her, and objectifying her pisses me off
* rakaur shower
<+harrimat> whatever
<+harrimat> i wasn't staring at her the whole time like you would have liked me to
<@rakaur> i didn't say you were

Wow. That was fruitful.

On to Scholar Bowl regionals! We lost the first match. To Roxana. By eight points. Boo fucking hoo.

Does it matter? No! I still have to go to the stupid “Scholar Bowl movie night” and “Scholar Bowl pizza party” and the god-forsaken winter sports banquet! And after that I still have to put up with the coach because she teaches my Sociology course! Son of a bitch!

And as a bonus for the night, my friends, I present you with JesusFreak™. So now she hates me, and won’t talk to me. And, you know what? I don’t even care. I mean, really. I’m such a heartless, cold, piece of garbage that the fact that she’s probably crying her little Jesus eyes out this very instant doesn’t faze me in the slightest. You know the very first thing I thought about? I thought “Well, I guess that means she won’t be talking to Kayla for me.”

Oh man what an awesome week.

-- rakaur // 2005.03.07 @ 11:16 PM

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