relationships: January 2005 archives
What Dreams May Come
[ rakaur on Fri Jan 07 at 09:41 AM // category: life, relationships ]
Man did I have a wacky dream last night.
My mom and I were visiting some guy’s house for some reason that’s unbeknownst to me. Kayla and some other girl were there. I’m not completely sure what was going on, but the guy seemed to “own” them, and decided to kill her in a sort of euthanasia way. I remember trying to stop him but not coming to physical blows, for whatever reason. It seemed as if he had every right to do it in the legal and even moral sense, except to me, because I… have feelings for her (love is such a strong word). I remember him exposing her to some kind of lethal substance, which took some time to set in. As she was dying, I left, sobbing, because I wanted to remember her as being alive instead of dead. I remember walking out of the house and then I woke up, and I was sad.
Scares the shit out of me. I don’t even known why, and that’s even scarier.
Blame it on my shadow I guess.
-- rakaur // 2005.01.07 @ 09:41 AM
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