music: March 2005 archives


My Old Numb Shadow

[ rakaur on Thu Mar 10 at 06:42 AM // category: life, music ]

I only recently realized how this song is related to Jungian psychology. It’s a pretty awesome song, now that I think about the level of meaning embedded in it. I’m not your big “OMG SONG IS SO COOL MAKE A CULT!” type of person, but this is a really well-written song.

My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking scabs again
I’m down digging through
My old muscles looking for a clue

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I want to feel the changes coming down
I want to know what I’ve been hiding in

My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking my scabs again

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions
I want to feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I want to feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I’ve endured within

My shadow
Change is coming, now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I’ve been clinging to
Forty-six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty-six and two are just ahead of me

Wow, that’s long. But anyway, if you know anything about Carl Jung’s psychology you’ll have a much bigger appreciation for this song. The most glaring Jungian term would be “shadow.”

-- rakaur // 2005.03.10 @ 06:42 AM

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