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Music Bullshit of the Highest Order

[ rakaur on Fri Mar 28 at 11:25 AM // category: music, technology // comments: 1 ]

So, a while ago, someone thought “Hey, this whole suing everyone thing isn’t going so well. How about we just make ISPs charge everyone $5 per month, because everyone is stealing!” This is evil and bullshit of the highest order. However, apparently this has caught on, and people are actually considering it now.

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-- rakaur // 2008.03.28 @ 11:25 AM

Web Tools

[ rakaur on Sat May 06 at 11:51 AM // category: life, music, technology, web ]

So, the new Tool CD is pretty sucky. I was hoping it’d be an evolution of Lateralus, because while I like Tool’s older stuff I like the latter (Aenima, Lateralus) stuff better. I’d have to say Aenima was my favorite album. Unfortunately, 10,000 days sounds like an in-between of Undertow and Aenima. So, rather than going forward from Lateralus, it’s as if the went to Undertow, took two steps forward to Aenima, and a step back with 10,000 days. It’s far more slam-bang than thought-out melodies. I mean, the songs are still really fucking long but it’s not interesting and they’re not exploring some weird melody like they do in Lateralus, so there’s no reason for them to be eleven minutes when it’s the same two guitar chords over and over. It’s probably because they don’t care anymore and just wanted an income boost so they quickly threw an album together. I was pretty disappointed. This only makes me sad because the last APC album really sucked too. The only song I can tolerate on it is Passive. Maybe I’m just not in a Tooly mood recently, I dunno.

So, there’s the issue of my website, and what I should do with it. I have new hosting, but my current site won’t work there because of mod_python. I have a few options, but I’m not sure what to do. I need people to post comments if anyone reads this still and vote here on what I should do. I could:

I’d absolutely love to do the last one, but I just don’t have the time, interest, or patience. Rails seems really neat, but I don’t know it, and I don’t have the desire to learn it. WordPress and Movable Type are both pretty blah though.

Any ideas?

-- rakaur // 2006.05.06 @ 11:51 AM

Lots o' Music

[ rakaur on Sat May 21 at 11:50 AM // category: eawr, life, music, school ]

So, I now maintain a list of all my digital music. I try to update it every time I amend my library. I just now went through all of my stuff without tags and tagged them, so they should all be good. Strangely, I have 1,500 songs exactly. I have around 500 more sitting in a temporary folder until I either delete them or organize them into my library.

And, oh, yeah, I’m done with school.

-- rakaur // 2005.05.21 @ 11:50 AM

Take a Look at Me Now

[ rakaur on Sun May 08 at 10:43 AM // category: life, music ]

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
We’ve shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds
And that’s what I’ve got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There’s so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
‘Cause there’s just an empty space
But to wait for you
Well that’s all I can do
And that’s what I’ve got to face
Take a good look at me now
I’ll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
And that’s the chance I’ve got to take

Just take a look at me now

-- rakaur // 2005.05.08 @ 10:43 AM

What Dreams May Come

[ rakaur on Fri Apr 29 at 12:54 PM // category: kori, life, music, relationships ]

The last few nights I’ve been dreaming. That’s unusual in itself, though, because I hardly ever remember my dreams. Kori’s in all of them. The first few were reminders to how much she hates me now. Last night was the worst one though; she started talking to me again. Things weren’t all right, but they were at least on the right track. Too bad I woke up.

I’m finding myself becoming more and more cynical. Things people do that never bothered me before now ride my nerves. I never used to give what people do while driving a second thought, but now every little thing bothers me. I also seriously wonder if I’m going to make it through my Sociology class without doing something stupid. I’ve talked about the people in there before. I mean, I can tolerate stupid people for so long. All smart people can. The thing is, tolerance runs out, but stupid people never run out of stupid. It’s an endless abyss from which they’ll never, ever escape, no matter how hard they try. Sometimes I’ll be sitting there, look across the room, and watch some stupid person be marvelled over some stupid thing, most likely a shiny object. Recently, I’ve had to mentally resist the instinct-like urge to go over and bludgeon their faces into their desks.

I don’t think losing my friends is helping. I keep telling myself I don’t need them, because they’re assholes anyway. I keep telling myself I don’t need friends because they’re just a distraction. I keep telling myself emotions are stupid and serve no purpose so there’s no reason to be upset over them. Call me crazy, but that’s pretty cynical.

To quote Evanescence:

Crawling through this world while disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can’t go on like this
I loathe all I’ve become

-- rakaur // 2005.04.29 @ 12:54 PM

Swing

[ rakaur on Sun Apr 24 at 09:50 AM // category: life, music ]

Still don’t mean nothin’, was written on the concrete
The words weren’t on my tongue, cause we don’t talk about it
Day or no evenin’, fashion or superman
Just little warped people, with little black minds

Well I wasn’t sure just what to think, say the lights went out,
Somebody, somebody swing

Don’t wanna, don’t wanna talk anymore
Somebody swing, don’t wanna talk no… no

What if we’re tainted, who can we lie to
What if we’re dying, would you just walk around it

Well I wasn’t sure just what to think, say the lights went out,
Somebody, somebody swing

Don’t wanna, don’t wanna talk anymore
Bring boy, can you bring me down
Can you swing
Don’t wanna, don’t wanna talk anymore

Shut your violence, keep your head down, watch your anger boy, realize you could lose
This is violence, look for reason, this don’t have to make sense to anybody at all, then everybody, won’t you swing

No still don’t mean nothin’, words written all over the concrete
All over the concrete, rage gets you out, so you swing

-- rakaur // 2005.04.24 @ 09:50 AM

Your Winter

[ rakaur on Thu Apr 21 at 07:39 AM // category: kori, life, music, relationships ]

The grey ceiling on the earth
Well it’s lasted for a while
Take my thoughts for what they’re worth
I’ve been acting like a child
And your opinion, what is that?
It’s just a different point of view

What else can I do?
I said I’m sorry, yeah I’m sorry
I said I’m sorry, but what for?
If I hurt you, then I hate myself
I don’t want to hate myself, don’t want to hurt you

Why do you chew your pain?
If you only knew how much I love you

I won’t be your winter
I won’t anyone’s excuse to cry
We can be forgiven
I will be here

The old picture on the shelf
It’s been there for a while
A frozen image of ourselves
We were acting like a child
Innocent, and in a trance
A dance that lasted for a while

You read my eyes just like your diary
Oh remember, please remember
Well I’m not a beggar, but what’s more?
If i hurt you, then I hate myself
I don’t want to hate myself, don’t want to hurt you

Why do you chew that pain?
If you only knew how much I love you

I won’t be your winter
I won’t be anyone’s excuse to cry
We can be forgiven
I will be here

-- rakaur // 2005.04.21 @ 07:39 AM

My Old Numb Shadow

[ rakaur on Thu Mar 10 at 06:42 AM // category: life, music ]

I only recently realized how this song is related to Jungian psychology. It’s a pretty awesome song, now that I think about the level of meaning embedded in it. I’m not your big “OMG SONG IS SO COOL MAKE A CULT!” type of person, but this is a really well-written song.

My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking scabs again
I’m down digging through
My old muscles looking for a clue

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I want to feel the changes coming down
I want to know what I’ve been hiding in

My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking my scabs again

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could’ve been
I’ve been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions
I want to feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I want to feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I’ve endured within

My shadow
Change is coming, now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I’ve been clinging to
Forty-six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty-six and two are just ahead of me

Wow, that’s long. But anyway, if you know anything about Carl Jung’s psychology you’ll have a much bigger appreciation for this song. The most glaring Jungian term would be “shadow.”

-- rakaur // 2005.03.10 @ 06:42 AM

Ruby Rant

[ rakaur on Sun Dec 05 at 11:13 AM // category: life, music, programming, technology ]

I wrote a Ruby rant. It’s a good one.

Feedback plz!

By the way, the new Evanescence CD blows. I think they’re completely out of material (there were a ton of Evanescence songs released before Fallen, they just weren’t mainstream, but I like them all much better than their new shit).

And also, they blow live.

-- rakaur // 2004.12.05 @ 11:13 AM

Holy Shit, Not Screwed?

[ rakaur on Tue Nov 02 at 05:03 PM // category: eawr, life, music, relationships, school ]

Aww yeah. School insurance is only like $40, one-time. Now I get to join Track etc! Yay!

In other news I’ve compiled a list of songs for girl-depression purposes:

  1. matchbox twenty - last beautiful girl
  2. the offspring - denial, revisited
  3. matchbox twenty - stop
  4. grinspoon - hate
  5. the offspring - (can’t get my) head around you
  6. sister hazel - killing me too [live]
  7. audioslave - what you are
  8. the offspring - spare me the details
  9. nirvana - heart shaped box
  10. a perfect circle - orestes
  11. the offspring - self esteem
  12. matchbox twenty - rest stop
  13. audioslave - getaway car
  14. matchbox twenty - hand me down
  15. the offspring - gone away
  16. a perfect circle - weak and powerless
  17. muse - hysteria
  18. a perfect circle - magdalena
  19. muse - hate this and i’ll love you
  20. matchbox twenty - you won’t be mine

A play time of 77 minutes. Subject to revision.

-- rakaur // 2004.11.02 @ 05:03 PM

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