life: October 2004 archives
East Alton Blows
[ rakaur on Sun Oct 31 at 03:29 PM // category: eawr, life, school ]
So, we’ve had zero water pressure for the last two days. As it turns out, it’s so bad now that the toilet won’t fill itself. This I learn after taking a nice steamy dump. My life just keeps getting more and more interesting I tell you what.
Went hiking at Pere Marquette today for the first time in a while. To my surprise, I wasn’t even tired afterwards, which is pretty odd considering I haven’t gone for a while.
I’m going to go out for Track in March, so I’ll start running a few miles and such every night with my friend that ran Cross Country this year. I regretted not doing so, so I might as well go for something.
Anyway, back to doing nothing.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.31 @ 03:29 PM
OMG UPDATE YOUR BLOG IRL
[ rakaur on Thu Oct 28 at 02:48 PM // category: life, relationships ]
I have no life. How’s that for an update, assholes?
I still have no friends, I still don’t go anywhere, I still don’t do anything, and I still don’t talk to Kayla.
I signed up for stupid volleyball/badminton/bowling because all the girls would take it and I’d be in her class BUT SHE SIGNED UP FOR WEIGHT LIFTING WHY DOES GOD TORTURE ME SO?
End of update.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.28 @ 02:48 PM
Holy Shit, I Went to a Football Game and Enjoyed It
[ rakaur on Sat Oct 23 at 11:49 PM // category: eawr, life, relationships, school ]
So, last night was the last season football game. It was roughly 100 miles away, in a rural ass town surrounded by cows. There’s no way I was going to drive, and figured I just wouldn’t go as none of my “friends” wanted to go.
But then I talked to the girl I want…
<me> hey
<girl> hey
<me> going to pana?
<girl> .. are you?
So I went to Pana (and, despite what all logic and reason tells you, it’s pronounced “PAIN-ah”). Yes, I went 200 miles round trip on a bus full of cheerleaders on the obscure chance that the girl I like might be there. She was there.
Unfortunately, the other kid that wants her was all over her the whole time. So I guess I lose. Yeah, that’s new.
So anyway, I had fun with some friends that were there and enjoyed myself generally. We spanked them 36 nothing. So, we went undefeated.
When we got back into town, half of the city was parked in an abandoned parking lot (K-Mart sucks) and we pulled in and everyone was honking and, being on a bus full of cheerleaders, there was a lot of noise. They all started screaming and cheering and banging on the bus and such. It was really fun.
The football player buses got there, and it was even more crazy. We left and police cars and firetrucks escorted us through the town, with a ton of people cheering us on throughout the streets. It was neat. Unfortunately, I had to piss like a race horse so I didn’t really stick around after we got to school.
In the long run, it was great, and I’m glad I went. It forced me into a social setting that I really need to learn to deal with. Unfortunately, I’ll still be madly depressed because of the girl thing. Hopefull I made some new friends though.
So here it is The feeling you heard about, can't do without If winter has fled and sadness has gone away A moment can overthrow the gray Lift up your head and say, only today And on it goes The motions can be escaped, so celebrate If you turn aside the image will reappear Accusing exactly as it fits Lift up your heart and say, only today Today, if winter has fled and sadness has gone away Lift up your head and say, only today So here it is The feeling you heard about, can't do without If winter has fled and sadness has gone away A moment can overthrow the gray Lift up your head and say, only today Lift up your head and say Only today
-- rakaur // 2004.10.23 @ 11:49 PM
Eat Shit and Die
[ rakaur on Mon Oct 18 at 10:25 PM // category: life, relationships ]
You know, there are times when you’re so frustrated with everything that you sit down to write and you have no idea where you’re going. Well, this is one of those times. Sometimes I wonder if the only thing keeping my reservoir of sanity from running dry is my infatuation with random girls that I’ve never met and know absolutely nothing about. I obsess with them endlessly until I’m forced to find someone else to attach myself to.
I don’t get it. Do I have to have someone I believe to love? Maybe because my family has been so defunct for the vast majority of my life? Maybe because I have no ciblings? Maybe because I’ve never had a real girlfriend? Maybe because the closest I’ve ever come to someone I could trust was someone several thousand miles away whom I knew only as text? I don’t know, maybe.
I’m so tired of being all strung out over something that I know is a complete waste of time. So, yeah, I’d like to have someone I could talk to. That someone being a girl I can care about would be a bonus. So do I just pick some girl I think is pretty and try to pretend she has all of these magical qualities that I’ll never actually find in anyone? I sound like a girl: picking some good looker and trying to make them into what I want, when in reality I know it’ll never happen.
Or maybe it’s because once again instead of talking to someone I’m sitting at a terminal at 10:30 writing to a machine.
I need someone.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.18 @ 10:25 PM
Apparently!
[ rakaur on Sat Oct 16 at 11:59 AM // category: eawr, life, relationships, school ]
I have a Webpage!
I have nothing to write about.
I went to a volleyball game to see a girl again and again haven’t talked to her etc.
I went to a football game and froze my ass off to see her for ten seconds etc.
Varsity lost the volleyball game, JV won.
We won the football game.
There.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.16 @ 11:59 AM
wut
[ rakaur on Mon Oct 11 at 09:35 PM // category: life ]
THERE’S BUTTER ON MY FACE!
-- rakaur // 2004.10.11 @ 09:35 PM
My Mom is a Giant Moron
[ rakaur on Mon Oct 11 at 10:16 AM // category: life ]
So, as I’m driving my mother to work this morning at 6:30 she’s telling me how the car was “low on oil” yesterday and how she “put some in.” I automatically translated this to “I took it and had the oil changed” because I honestly didn’t think she was this stupid.
So I’m on my way home, and the thing is chugging and rattling and spewing exhaust out the ass. I’m thinking “no, she couldn’t possibly…” as I check the oil level. It turns out, the four quarts in there (it’s a four quart tank) were more used up than Jenna Jameson, so she went to DOLLAR GENERAL and put in seven quarts of shitty ass oil. Yes, the engine had 11 quarts of oil in a four quart tank. It was filled up to the cylinder heads.
So I changed the oil with four quarts of the good clear as silk stuff; I changed the oil filter; I changed the air filter; I put some fuel injector cleaner in; I changed windshield washer fluid; I changed power steering fluid; I sealed the battery; and, I put air in the god damn tires. The car runs better than it did when it was made.
Swear to god.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.11 @ 10:16 AM
Kitty Update
[ rakaur on Sat Oct 09 at 02:13 PM // category: life ]
Well, Pax came in heat and we have no money so we gave her to someone who did.
However, we have aquired Asia’s (my other cat) brother. He’s a beautiful snow lepard bengal. I have taken some pictures.
We named him “Loki.” It’s very fitting.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.09 @ 02:13 PM
Web Design With a Side of Potatoes
[ rakaur on Sat Oct 09 at 01:33 PM // category: life, programming, technology, web ]
It’s that time again!
I need a new layout for my sites (namely this one). I realize I haven’t had this one up very long; but, I’ve been using this layout for quite some time. So, if any of you layout-desiging fools out there would care to take a crack at it, I need:
- Light on dark (ie, white text on some dark-but-not-black color);
- A nice font that doesn’t look crappy like this one (eg, verdana);
- A simple “liquid” layout (ie, horizontally centered, sidebar, content);
- A main menu, and submenus for sections that need them.
I’ve been messing with it, but you know, I suck ass at layouts.
That reminds me, I need to figure out: Python or PHP. It seems mod_python is broken on the latest Apache, so I’m not sure. PHP is geared towards Web stuff, but you know, I hate PHP. Python is just so much cleaner and organized; and, for the simple stuff I do it’d work just fine (in fact, I already wrote a Python version of my blog). The only bad part about using Python is that there’s no (decent) Markdown implementation for it. There’s a few floating around on the Web, but they all do something improperly and they’re so hacked up in a Perlesque manner that I can’t figure out what to do with them. Porting that will suck.
Anyway.
We went up to Bunker Hill last night to shoot the potato gun. Holy shit, it’s loud. I mean like, it rivals something that uses gun powder as opposed to air and starting fluid. It doesn’t shoot quite as far as I thought it would, but it’s still pretty neat (and fun to shoot when it actually works).
I might have to get me one of those.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.09 @ 01:33 PM
You Say Potato, I Say Golf Ball
[ rakaur on Thu Oct 07 at 10:23 PM // category: life ]
Well since this is the first time I’ve been home all day for any decent amount of time, I’ll write a blog entry.
After school there was a yearbook meeting until five. This basically consisted of me eating pizza, confirming that all the page layouts done on the computer were in fact no longer there, and cropping pictures. Other people actually did important stuff, so I’m told.
Then, I went out to eat.
Then, I went home for twenty minutes.
Then, I picked up Tim and went to yet another volleyball game to see the girl I’ll never talk to because I have no testicles. We lost very badly. Very, very badly.
So having lost so badly that it only took until eight o’clock, we decided to drive out to the asscrack of Hartford and shoot a potato gun. Unfortunately, Matt shoved a 1.8” golf ball into a 1.5” tube. So we spent an hour trying to pry, heat, pull, screw, and yank the ball out. Yes, here we are, in the middle of no where, at night, swinging around a long plastic pipe and heating up the bottom of it with lighters.
We eventually gave up, and headed back to Hartford. Matt decided to be a cock and left his brights on behind me the entire way. Then he passed me. Then I passed him. Then we drove back around through his street and yelled “MMMMMMMMMMMMMBBBBBAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRR” for no readily apparent reason.
Then we went home.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.07 @ 10:23 PM
The X Windows Disaster
[ rakaur on Mon Oct 04 at 06:49 AM // category: health, life, software, technology, unix ]
I hate X.
Saturday, the picture tube in my monitor finally decided to shit the bed and died. It’d been doing wacky things like turning off and resetting itself for the last two weeks.
So, I go out and get a new one. Same size, same brand, same specs. I plug it in and lo and behold, all of my fonts in X are gargantuan for no reason. Now, please, someone explain to me why changing my monitor fucks up my fonts in X. Everything is still fine and dandy in Windows. So I redo my XF86Config and they’re still borked. Recompile fontconfig and they’re still borked. Recompile X and XFT and they’re still borked. Recompile GTK and they’re still borked. I don’t get it. I’m going to have to reinstall my entire OS because X won’t display my fonts correctly.
But wait, I can’t do that, either! A quick (ha!) scan with badblocks reveals that it is indeed my primary hard drive that randomly clicks and spins down and won’t spin up again for hours. Swift! I’m just going to wipe this computer and either a) sell it or; b) let it sit until I can afford a hard drive so big that by the next time I’d need a bigger one they’ll have holographic storage workly properly.
I swear to God I should just get a Mac.
On an unrelated note my back is worse than ever. I don’t know what the hell I did to it but I could hardly move at all last night. A night’s rest on a heated waterbed seems to have done some good, but I don’t expect that to last all day.
Hopefully I can make it through class.
-- rakaur // 2004.10.04 @ 06:49 AM
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