Just a Small Town Girl
[ rakaur on Sat Jul 16 at 11:11 AM // category: life, nikki, relationships ]
So, last night at work I was working with the girl I like, Nikki.
Or, I liked her. There’s been a rumor going around that she thought she was pregnant. She’s sixteen. The rumor is she’s pregnant, she’s going to have the baby and give it to her sister because her sister can’t have kids. It sounds so wacky I wanted to discredit the rumor, but I like her, so I didn’t want it to be true.
Well, last night we talked a lot and I told her I was interested in her. Well, to be more precise, she “heard” I was interested in her. She said something along the lines of “yeah, I heard you liked me around the same time my little secret got out.” I wanted to talk to her all night to clarify it, but I was, you know, working. She hung around for like two hours after she was off, but I never got the chance to talk to her (Friday night, two new movies, it sucked). So, before she left she came up to tell me she was leaving and a brief conversation commenced on how we rarely work together and thus rarely see each other, so she gave me her phone number. I was insanely happy at the time, but, why should I be?
I mean, I really, really like her. She’s a really sweet girl, and she’s funny and generally fun to be around. But, she’s sixteen and apparently pregnant (if that’s what her “little secret” is). Should I even like a girl that gets knocked up at sixteen? I know I can’t deal with that kind of drama. I know I can’t get involved with someone in that condition. I know I can’t, but I still find myself wanting to be with her.
Although the answer is blaringly obvious (“don’t do it, it’s not worth it”), I honestly don’t know what to do.
-- rakaur // 2005.07.16 @ 11:11 AM
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