Want to Break Up? I'll Pick You Up At Eight
[ rakaur on Wed Apr 13 at 08:08 PM // category: kori, life, relationships ]
Remember me mentioning I’d start posting photography sites? Well, here you go. Man, I miss my camera.
But more importantly, I’m so insanely worried about Kori it’s depressing. So, the deal is, apparently her and her boyfriend “broke up.” I surround that word with quotations because they seem have a strange notion of how this whole break up business works. When she first told me, I figured “This won’t last too long, they’re both insanely crazy about each other.” Normally, when two people break up (or separate/go on a break), they don’t talk to or see each other often. Kori and Chris both plan on getting back together. So, after they “broke up,” it seems they’ve talked every day, and seen each other, and plan on seeing a movie tomorrow.
Now, if you’re going to talk, and see each other, and go on dates, what would be the point in “breaking up”? Isn’t that… you know… a relationship? Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to criticize them: god knows I know absolutely dog-shit-nothing about relationships. I’m only trying to understand what they’re doing. Because, to me, it seems as if they’re saying they’re no longer together, while being together, but still making Kori cry about not being together. So the only difference, in essence, if you’re following me here, is that Kori is now crying, whereas before, she was not. That is to say, nothing has changed, except Kori crying. This is the only reason I’m even bothering to try to sort it out is because Kori is now crying. When I say “crying” throughout this paragraph, I mean generally depressed and upset. And, when Kori is generally depressed and upset for what, to me, appears to be a completely fatuous reason, I tend to get a little angry.
Now, this is going to get tricky, because, well, it’s pretty tricky, you know. As far as I’m concerned, Kori is the closest friend I have and she’d be the absolute first person I’d even remotely think about talking to in a situation such as this. However, she doesn’t seem to think so much of me as I’ve come to (painfully) realize. ‘Tis rather depressing. So, now you can understand why her being upset and crying for a mind-blowingly dumbass reason, which, to reiterate, appears to be no reason at all, would make me angry. That’s why it’s tricky. As far as I can tell, they’re not actually split up, but she’s still upset as if they were. Of course, I’m not getting the full story here, because no one ever tells me anything, so who knows; perhaps there actually is a beguiled reason for all of this to which I am completely oblivious.
So, to summarize: as far as I’m concerned, Kori is horribly depressed for no reason. This makes me mad, disgruntled, disappointed, depressed, frustrated, tumultuous, etc. I feel so anxious just sitting around, knowing that a few miles away she could be crying.
I care about her way too much, I think. Can’t be good, really.
-- rakaur // 2005.04.13 @ 08:08 PM
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