KORI
[ rakaur on Wed Apr 20 at 06:19 PM // category: kori, life, relationships ]
Kori, would you just freaking call me or talk to me on AIM or something, and at least give me a chance to talk? You’ve indicted, tried, and convicted me without letting me defend myself. Come on, this is a friendship, not Soviet Russia.
Yes, I care about you more than I should, but I never, ever acted on anything. I had a crush on you, that’s it. I mean, I told Chris that a long time ago, it was no big deal, because I know we’re just friends. I was your friend and nothing more. I was involved because you were hurt, and that hurt me. My blog is here so I can write out what I feel, because that helps me sort through my feelings. I write what I think. So, I guess, if you want to hate me for thinking something, then whatever.
Yeah, I “gave him the site.” It is, you know, on the Internet, available to anyone. I strongly oppose censorship, and I’ve always been an open and straight-forward person, so why wouldn’t I give him the site? Most people think bad things about people and don’t say them, just because I did say them makes me somehow evil? No, I don’t think so. Society tends to disagree with me, so, some you lose.
Yeah, some of the things I wrote made him “sound bad.” I was angry. You were angry too. I never pretended to understand, but does lack of understanding exclude me from having an opinion? I guess so.
You know I didn’t do anything to try to split you guys up. I never once said a bad thing about him to you, even when you were pissed at him. I kept my opinions to myself. I don’t remember coming over to your house, typing in my Website’s address, and prying your eyes open forcing you to read my opinions.
If you don’t remember me mentioning “my ex used to draw wacky shit like that” when you were showing me your drawings, then, what can I tell you? I know I mentioned it, on multiple occasions. If you really want, I can get her to talk to you on AIM to prove it.
Yes, I write about you a lot. You’re my friend; and, what the hell do I have in my life, other than my friends? You are… were… the only close friend I had. At least, I thought we were close friends.
Losing you as a friend would really hurt, and I don’t want that. Please, for the sake of our friendship, just give me a chance to talk.
That’s all I want.
-- rakaur // 2005.04.20 @ 06:19 PM
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