1600m Bullshit
[ rakaur on Sat Apr 16 at 10:14 PM // category: eawr, kori, life, relationships, running, school ]
First off, photography. Now on to the good stuff.
I’m… well, I’m actually not sure what I am.
At the meet today, I was over by the high jump when someone pointed out Kori walking across the field. So, I walk over to say hi, and she just starts crying and hugs me.
When I first pulled up to the meet, I thought I saw her (ex)boyfriend (see previous post) playing tennis with some girl. That girl turned out to be the one that’s tried to split them up in the past. And, to be completely honest with you, when Kori told me they broke up I figured “hey, you know what, I bet he just wants to pork that other girl,” but then I thought “nah, you know, Chris seems to be like a good guy.” Then, today she tells me that he initiated the breakup… so I don’t know what to think anymore.
So Kori shows up and sees them playing, and gets insanely upset. I walked around with her until I had to go run (which I’ll get to, but this is more important). I do know, that if he wants to split up with her just so he can get laid by some other (rather unattractive) girl, and then get back together, that’s just not cool at all. Kori loves him so much, you know, and is taking this so hard, and it hurts everyone (at least, her and me). He doesn’t seem to be having any difficulty with it whatsoever. And, judging by the way he refused to look at her when she tried to talk to him, and just went on playing tennis, it’s as if he’s just trying to drop her like a bad habit. Of course, I don’t know the whole story, but this is how it comes off to me.
I’ve never had anything against Chris, I always thought he was a really good guy, and Kori was happy, so I was happy. That, however, has changed. I don’t know what to think of him anymore, and I sure as hell know Kori isn’t happy anymore. I love her to death, and I hate seeing her like this. At this very moment, I wish I could just track her down and hug her forever.
I might care about her more than I should, but it’s better than caring about her less than I should.
Now, about the run. I had to run the 1600m (one mile) for the first time today. My PR was 6:42, which I thought was about right for me, ‘cause I suck. So, I was supposed to pace with this other kid on our team the whole time. He kept telling me the whole time to go ahead, and I kept telling him I was saving it for the fourth (final) lap, and the kids around us just kept looking at me like I was bullshitting it. So, it comes around to the fourth lap and I picked up the pace a bit, and passed a few kids. On the last 100 meters I started kicking (sprinting) and passed three or four kids, and tried to catch this Roxana kid that I beat in the 800m last time, but I missed him by a second or so. I wound up with 5:58.
At least something went well tonight.
-- rakaur // 2005.04.16 @ 10:14 PM
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